Volcano Bay: Time to Get Off My Ass

Today we went to Volcano Bay.

I've been excited to go and give it a try. I haven't been to a water park since David worked at Aquatica. I received an invite to go by David's friend and agreed to go since I'm always saying no and I wanted to give myself an excuse to go out and actually do something.

Of course, I acted like a bitch about going. I kept dreading the day, and was finding myself actively looking for an excuse not to go. But I didn't bow out. I think the main driving force behind me sticking to the plan and going was when I kept whining to David about not wanting to go and then I saw what he had labeled the event in the calendar.

After seeing his Calendar entry I felt like an asshole. I'm throwing fits and tantrums over having to go to the park, and he's thinking of this as the "best day ever". I couldn't back out.

So yeah, I actually ended up having a blast. I walked around barefoot all day which was really nice to let my little piggies breathe. My whole body is sunburnt now, and I'm sure I'm going to hate myself tomorrow, but you know, I had fun.

I need to stop trying to make up excuses not to go out and just go out and enjoy myself. I had told David earlier in the year that my goal was to do more. I'm back into D2 pretty hard right now, which is awesome, except for it has me so fucking lazy when the weekend comes.

I still have the mentality that a weekend is not truly successful unless I've managed to do absolutely nothing. Every now and then I think that's fine. It does feel relaxing to just stay home and laze the weekend away. But when it's every weekend it just feels....unfulfilling.

It's sad when I'm watching my younger sister go out and do things that I so badly want to do yet I'm passing it by because it involves driving somewhere or leaving the house.

So here's hoping I can shake this "do nothing" mentality and start doing more. It's time to live the life I have instead of just move through it.